Sketch Book...

long time i didnt update my blog... seriously got nothing to blog and is terribly lazy to blog anyway...

but now, since i'm so bored and lazy to do this and that and everything, i decided to at least type something in this rather empty blog...

in just around 3 days from now... a big day for someone and something important to me... and it's just like last year.. i'm busy preparing for it... the sketch book is still undone...

but can that person understand all the trouble i went through to create that sketch book... the sketch book might look simple and plain but i spent around 2 days just to get the sketch book itself... and another 2 days to prepare what goes into the book...

hopefully.. the purpose of the sketch book will be fulfilled...

i bet you have no idea what i'm talking about... because no one should know what i'm talking about..

it's a secret...

but anyway... saturday, i have to hunt for the last component for the whole set... and god knows how long i will take to find it...

but does the person know all these trouble? or will the person just take it for granted? i dont know...

ever since this year, things had changed... the person changed.. i've changed because the person changed...

and i saw the ugly side of those people... those people i thought were nice...

but i was wrong... never judge the book by its cover... and they dont understand that whatever they do is causing things to change for the worse...

the sketch book depicts all these changes... i will make sure it brings back those memories from the past... hopefully to change something for the better and perhaps eliminate as much manipulation as possible...

i cant fail...

Dejavu too often?

for normal people, dejavu does not occur too often like every other hour... well, mine does... and it's troubling...

the worse thing is, i cant predict which is correct and which is not... i will guess that those that are not suppose to be correct to be correct and those which are correct to be wrong... as a result, i cut my finger and didnt have a plaster to bandage it... -_-"

and sometimes, i can sense weird things around me... is it because of the seventh month? dont think so... i suddenly cant control my mind because it tends to wonder off somewhere else...

even my feelings are tied to it... if i feel something weird, i would become very quiet... but it's not my fault that i feel something weird... i cant help it...

my friends, those close ones in school... think that there's something wrong with me because i'm not as lame as usual... but there's nothing wrong with me...

i guess...

i was like this in primary school too... and i had friends then too... they know what i was talking about and they know that i'm always like that...

but in secondary school, maybe i've changed from a quiet person to someone with a voice... and maybe, i'm changing back to primary school me again...

changes... no one can predict when they will happen...

changes... not all are good ones...

changes... i hate changes...

but i just want to tell those concerned people out there... i'm fine... let me be... i'll get over it and live...

i hope...

i'm still broy...

I don't feel like myself...

something's wrong...

but what's the something?

i dont feel like myself anymore..

people are telling me i'm more quiet than usual... some even told me i suddenly became anti-social... but i cant help it because i dunnoe what's going on in me...

i've been like that since wednesday... has it got anything to do with the supernatural? or is it just me worrying too much?

but i think i know the reason why... the nightmare that i had might be the reason why i've suddenly changed... but i dunnoe how accurate the nightmare is, considering that it occured in a place that i know is long gone already... and i will never be able to go back there...

or could it be a sign? i dont think so... that wont be possible... but in my nightmare, lost was what i experienced... i've experienced lost before... but i dont want it to happen again...

especially when the nightmare is about the lost of someone you dearly cared for...

ブロイの影 has been reborn~

woot~

after fighting with blogspot for so many days, weeks, months just to get my older blog to be functioning, i finally gave up and thought of starting it's rebirth... could be a new start of my blog, as well as my life...

well... the older blog wont be deleted as there are too many entries in it already... so i'm keeping it... for people interested, you can go to my older blog by clicking on the link on the right of this blog...

all the things in this new blog will be kept the same because i'm too lazy to do any major changes... and some of the changes are too complicated so i dont bother... some of them, i'm just too stupid to change them so why bother la...

well... ya... have to run... bye...